M.I.A. by Nique

Missin' in action, seems I've been..
BUT bac' in town, so please no frowns..
It's still been hard out herre please understand..
Not much gettin' betta', no new plan..
Love?? Jus' a four letta' wurd..
Searchin' for nouns, riight now jus' a verb..
I seem to get so twisted into my feelin'z..
Selfish into thinkin' I can wurk things thru'..
Sum tymes there's jus' no wurkin' to do..
I've had so many down falls, neva' riight always wrong..
Foreva' for so long, it's been da' same ol' song..
So, maybe it is me.. I'm tryin' to hard..
Too hard for the obvious non exsistance..
Drivin' mah self and er' one around senseless..
I'm in dis' alone, no help, no compensation..
No heart, no thought, no relation..
Missin' in action, sum tymes I do get..
Tryin' figure things out, and how they fit..
Cryin' gets old, and tryna' make sum1 happy does to..
Is it for me? Should I give up? And, so I ask you..
I've drifted off from mah poetry - now its all built up..
Comprehendin'?? Gettin' it?? Suggestions?? Wish you luck..
I ask'd around.. I've tried mah bes' friends..
Nothin' seems 2 help me figure da' beginnin' OR end..
I'm so los' into mah own thoughts, mah head hurts..
I'm not good enough. I have no personality..
Atleast dats wut I'm tol' - dis' is reality..
I'm full of love, and fun - only when let in..
Only when given a chance. Only holdin' a pen??
I pray for second chances, I pray for help..
I'm not ashamed of mah faults or da' truth..
Only afraid of not succeedin' - not gettin' further..
I have a lack of faith in mah self, however..
Sum thin' keeps tellin' me to push on..
To kno' dat er' one dat believes in me isn't gone..
AND whether I get dat today OR tomorrow..
I'll proceed blogger, I've yet to reach mah low..

~Da' One & Only Nique #22